My head feels so heavy now…as heavy as H…today finally K O d…i thought i’d be ok…took drugs in the afternoon n slept for 3+ hours…Hmm..wake up didnt feel any better…i jus don like being sick le…Flu n stuff…hmm…:’(
Well i’m not supposed to be addicted to anything; I’ve fasted coffee once when i realized i’ve addicted to it..fasted food when i realized the first thing when i think of in the morning is food…I fasted not because i wanna diet or somthing…i fasted because i want to learn self-control, to be free from the grip of anything…be it material or spiritual…or even hunger for something…
Well..this round..i really need to see the doctor…am i addicted to work? hehe..or am i addicted to "Busy"ness?? It’s a ticking bell for me to realized that i need to lay myself down…my interest, my desires, my "SELF"…Work, eat, sleep, sports, leisure…and the list goes on..but there’s more to life than that…
Dear Lord, Thank You for reminding me again…that man are nothing but mere human..but You are the Creator of the world, You know me even before i was born..and You know me better than i do. Thank You for reminding me that no matter who i am, what i do, You are there for me. I want to be like the eagle who’s able to rest and just spread out wings, and fly with Your hands carrying me…
~ When the oceans rise and thunders roar, I will soar with You above the storm; Father You are King over the flood, I will be still and know You are God. .~
