Sunday, September 17th, 2006
It has been difficult to sleep this few days. My brother in Christ, SC has been admitted to the hospital due to sudden burst of an abnormal blood vessel in the brain. It has been really shocking and painful until now. He hasn’t gain full conscious and another operation has took place to puncture a hole in the throat. I couldn’t imagine how painful it is but all in all I do wished to bear the pain for him if i’m permitted to do so…
Yet, man couldnt comprehend God’s ways and we have to always trust in Him and believe that all He plans is the best. God doesn’t make mistakes. It’s a huge struggle in me…I believe this truth but on the other hand in my eyes I see pain and sorrow and helplessness which made the emotional side of mine so helpless, and so difficult to express…
I know God heals and i know yet sometimes God chooses not to heal for His reasons. We are His children and He does blesses and protects His children. He does the best for us and He has given us the greatest love of all through the sacrifice of His Son in the cross. It’s just that I still feel sad and painful for my brother even though in me i know that everything is going under control in God’s hands…
I admit that I still have a bit of worry, and I couldnt really say that I can rejoice…Indeed i believe that this is a time of test not only for Sze chung and the family but also for each of us individually. Have we been complacent in our life? Have we been neglecting people around us but was too busy with our lives? Have we been prayerless for our friends but too caught up in the ministry in church? And have we been forsaking the first love and our close walk with God like once we did? It’s time to check your heart. When we’re lazy, when we’re complacent, and when we’re not watchful, He will send trials to test our faith. Lord, teach me to trust in You with all my heart and all my mind and all my strength…
Dear didi,
In this world we have many troubles. But take heart, God has overcomed the world…Our Lord has said, never will i leave you, never will i forsake you. Be strong and trust in the Lord…
Love, jeh
